Uncle Saddam

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Before you read: 

Hello everyone, I apologize for such a lengthy gap between posts.  February has been one hell of a month and, alas, there hasn’t been much time to read, write and reflect.  However, it is now time to break the silence!  I have permission from a friend of mine (who wishes to remain anonymous) to post a short story he wrote a few years ago somewhat based on his childhood in Birmingham, England.  In a few days, I’ll also be posting a screenplay he adapted from the story.  So, without further ado, I present to you all “Uncle Saddam.”  Enjoy.  

 

 

Uncle Saddam

 

As she flew across the screen with a defeated howl he slammed the controller onto his pillow, but it bounced off and onto the floor, pulling the Super Nintendo console down with it. Ibrahim recovered the console from the floor, popped the Street Fighter II cartridge back inside, and placed it back on the drawer next to the ancient television they’d got from the Indians. As he waited for the title screen to appear his mum came in.

‘What was that noise?’ she asked suspiciously.

‘Nothing,’ he replied. ‘I dropped the controller.’

‘Well be careful, that thing wasn’t cheap.’ She’d been in the bathroom dying her hair and had a towel wrapped around her shoulders which was covered in dark red patches, like dried blood. ‘You should go out and play with your friends tomorrow,’ she continued, adjusting some hairpins and walking back to the bathroom. ‘You’ve been playing that bloody game all week.’

She was right; he’d missed out on some fun that week. The kids from down the flats had got hold of a load of fireworks from somewhere, so that was bound to be fun, and yesterday his mates from school had managed to get in to Lethal Weapon 3 at the cinema, which was a certificate 15, the lucky bastards. He didn’t particularly want to spend the whole school holiday playing Street Fighter II, but he just couldn’t tear himself away.

Halfway through a fight he started to hear voices downstairs, their muffled tones coming to him as if from under a forgotten lake, an occasional yell bobbing to the surface. He paused the game and tiptoed out onto the landing, then leant over the banister to see if he could see anything. He couldn’t really, only the distorted shape of his dad swimming in the glass living room door.

‘Mum,’ he called. She had the tap on. ‘Mum!’ he called louder.

‘What do you want now?’ she said irritably.

‘What are Baba and Bibi arguing about?’

‘They’re not at it again, are they?’ she exclaimed, coming out onto the landing. ‘Your father and his mother are as bad as each other.’ They listened for a while. ‘I’ll have to go down,’ she said. ‘The neighbours’ll complain again.’

He followed close behind her but stopped on the third step from bottom and looked through the half-open living room door at what was going on. Baba was standing and shouting at Bibi, pointing his finger at her like a schoolteacher, thick moustache and eyebrows emphasising the anger scored in his face. Bibi obviously wasn’t intimidated however, and shouted back at him from inside her cocoon of clothes, the same look of disgust on her face as he. Mum walked in to the room.

‘Can you believe this?’ Baba said turning to Mum. ‘She wants to go to the fucking mosque.’

‘Well what do you expect? She’s worried.’

‘And she thinks that’s going to help. It’s pathetic.’

Bibi looked at the clock and stood up using her stick, then hobbled around to the back of the two armchairs, rolled out her carpet and slowly got down on her knees.

Mum took Baba by the arm and led him into the hallway.

‘Go upstairs,’ Baba said in his not-to-be-disobeyed voice, so the boy ran up and watched from the top stair.

‘I can take her to the mosque,’ Mum said quietly, peeping in at Bibi praying. ‘It’s near the Aston Villa ground, isn’t it?’

‘No! I forbid it!’ Baba yelled. ‘She’s not going.’

Mum stood looking at Baba quietly as he rummaged in his coat and found some cigarettes. He went out the backdoor without a word, the red butt of his cigarette rising and falling like a flare over a black ocean through the patterned glass.

Ibrahim ran down the stairs and into the living room.

‘Shh,’ Mum said. ‘Your granny’s praying.’

He watched Bibi for a bit and was soon joined by the cat, who nudged open the door with his head and walked in. It was as if the cat looked forward to Bibi’s evening prayers, he never missed them. As was his custom, he sat nearby watching her like she was mad, but was gradually lulled into the performance, the soft purrs of her whispered chants drawing him closer until he was sat beside her on the rug like an Egyptian statue.

‘I’m going to draw a picture,’ Ibrahim said to his mum, the fancy suddenly taking him as it often did. So he collected his drawing box from under the coffee table, selected his best drawing pad, the expensive one with thick paper, and took a position on the carpet in front of the TV. He started lightly with pencil, then when he was happy went over the outline of the two fighters with black pen, relishing the details in the army uniforms. That just left the colouring in. He started selecting the colours he’d use, barely noticing his parents come in with the teapot. He was vaguely aware of the boring 9 o’clock news music coming on at some point, but didn’t hear the headlines; he was busy making the blood look realistic. When he finished he sat up and admired the drawing. Baba would love it.

He went over to Baba. ‘Look,’ he said.

‘Shh, not now habibi,’ his dad replied. He was watching the news like the cat watched birds out the front window, only he wasn’t making cat noises, just letting out an occasional Arabic mumble. The TV displayed the words ‘Iraq Sanctions’ and showed people cheering and holding pictures of Saddam, a face Ibrahim knew well.

‘Baba, look,’ he resumed, waving the picture in front of his dad’s face, but there was no reply, his dad only brushed the paper away.

He prodded Baba. ‘Look,’ he said insistently. ‘Baba…’

Baba snapped, ripping the picture from his son’s hands and tearing it. ‘What do you want?’ he growled.

Ibrahim let out a loud piercing whine.

‘Shut up!’ Baba screamed at him, pulling off his leather sandal ready to hit him, but Ibrahim was away and up the stairs onto the landing before he had chance.

‘What?’ he turned on his wife now. ‘What are you looking at?’ He paused for a few seconds, still holding the slipper in his hand, slightly out of breath. ‘Your son spends all his time playing on those fucking computer games whilst his cousins are living at the mercy of a madman.’

Baba turned to Bibi. ‘And you,’ he said. ‘Your son’s in prison for no reason,’ he repeated in Arabic, ‘being beaten and tortured.’ Again he repeated in Arabic for Bibi’s benefit, in whose eyes pools began to form. ‘And you want to go the ‘President Saddam Hussein Mosque’.’

‘Oh, let her go and pray,’ his wife broke in.

‘I don’t mind her praying,’ he said, ‘but in the fucking Saddam mosque? She’s not one of these Pakistanis… You know what the butcher said to me today? He told me that Saddam’s a great man…’

‘She’s worried that the Ba’athis are watching.’

‘So what if they are,’ he spat, hand raised about to strike. ‘You think I’m scared of those coward bastards? I beat up hundreds of them in Baghdad.’ He pointed at Bibi. ‘What will we do next? Shall we put up a picture of Saddam? Shall we have our son call him “Uncle Saddam” in case they’re more spies in the community?’

‘Your brother had a picture of him up in his warehouse in Baghdad,’ she cut in defiantly, and then quietly, ‘I’m taking her in the morning.’

Baba snapped out and grabbed her by the arms, dropping his slipper to the floor and shaking her. ‘He put it up near the roof where nobody ever noticed it… Do you hear me, you bitch!?’ His words were a deafening hiss.

‘Hey!’ Bibi barked, raising her walking stick.

Ibrahim started shelling his fists against the cheap wooden door to his bedroom. The banging resounded through the house so that Mum broke from Baba’s grip and went for the stairs, leaving the two of them in the living room, mother and father stranded on an island with just a television.

 

 

The next morning Ibrahim ate Coco Pops in the kitchen whilst Mum got Bibi’s coat on in the hallway. Mum walked in and stood next to the cooker.

‘You’re going out to play with your friends today?’ she quizzed, eyes raised to the clock high up on the wall behind him.

‘Yesss,’ he replied angrily.

She started lecturing him, ‘… can’t stay in here all day…’ But he wasn’t listening, and she didn’t notice because it was as if she was afraid the clock was watching. He was busy admiring his drawing on the fridge. It had been taped back together crookedly and Baba’s leg looked like it had been broken, but Saddam was still flying through the air from the kick, blood spurting out of his mouth.

Mum and Bibi left out the back door, and Ibrahim heard Baba coming down the stairs, so called out to him.

‘Ya Baba,’ his dad affectionately replied as he stuck his head around the half-opened door.

‘Are they going to the mosque?’

‘Yes, habibi,’ he said glumly, then lumbered in, sat at the table and watched the cat eating from the bowl next to the fridge. ‘Have you completed Street Fighter yet?’

‘Not yet. I can’t beat the final boss. I’m not playing today though because I’m going out with my friends.’

They heard the car pull off the drive and a couple of fireworks explode nearby. ‘Well,’ Baba said, with that mischievous look on his face. ‘That’s a shame, because together I think we can beat the bastard.’

Entitled Opinions (About Life and Literature)

Entitled Opinions (About Life and Literature)

For all of you interested in finding out more about Roberto Bolaño, and, more specifically, By Night in Chile, I encourage you to check out this Stanford-based radio program: Entitled Opinions.  The Bolaño show aired on February 1st of 2011.  

Aside from that particular airing, the program itself is quite solid.  Intelligent analysis and conversation on topics ranging from Moby Dick to The Human Brain to Athenian Democracy to Psychedelic Rock.  If you can stomach the occasional academic elitism and the sometimes snotty pontificating of the host, Robert Harrison, I think you’ll find it to be quite an interesting, rewarding way to spend an hour or so of your day.  I tend to listen to it when I go for walks.  Gets the brain moving in tandem with the body.  

Origins: an introductory letter to prospective readers and contributors

Roberto Bolaño, photo clearly taken in the 1980´s

Roberto Bolaño, photo clearly taken in the 1980´s

Before anyone can ask, I’m gonna go ahead and explain myself.  It’s always better that way.  At least for me (and all other timid souls of the world).  The title of my blog, Tormenta, has its origins in one of my all-time favorite writers, Roberto Bolaño.  See, he was born in Chile, came of age in Mexico, left Latin America behind forever at the age of 24 and moved to Spain, where he would remain until his death in 2003.  I owe Bolaño a great deal.  Not just intellectually, but in general.

In the summer (northern hemisphere) of 2011 I made the decision to spend a semester abroad in Chile.  At the time, I was 21 years old and really had no idea what I wanted to do with my life—other than party, travel, read, voraciously consume films and T.V. shows, play music and (to use some contemporary Anglo-American parlance) “chill.”  Now that I think about it, not much has changed in regards to my aforementioned personal pursuits & interests.  Except maybe for the partying aspect.  I like to go out and have a drink, chit-chat and blow steam just as much as the next guy or gal.  However, my desire to truly party, in all aspects of the term, has significantly abated over the past year.  Call it maturity, call it me-being-lame, call it having a life and being in a serious relationship.  Whatever brand or catch-phrase you or I or “they” bestow, all I can say is it’s no longer my cup of tea.  Although, it must be said, I am and will forever be a sucker for good conversation.  And I think we all know good conversation is almost always (or, at least, often can be) fueled by a bottle of wine or whisky or any other particular, personal preference from the eclectic menagerie of substances (legal and illegal) our generation has at its disposal.

But I digress…

Skipping over details, long story short, etc. etc. yadda-yadda-yadda (this is a blog after all) I ended up returning to Chile.  You see, I had fallen in love.  With the country?  Yes, although not 100%.  That’s impossible, no-one can ever love a country completely.  There’s always something that will rub you the wrong way—leave a bad taste in your mouth, as it were.  And if anyone tries to convince you otherwise, call ‘em out on their B.S.  I have a penchant for the city of Valparaíso—the city I currently call home—and its graffiti-splashed walls, its labyrinthine streets infested with stray dogs (and their piss and kaka), its sunny beaches and the intense, resplendent dark-blue of the Pacific Ocean.  But as for the rest of Chile…okay, yeah, I guess I like it quite a bit as well.  Just not as much as I do here: in lovely, palm-tree-cluttered Valpo.  But again, I digress…

The main reason I came back to Chile was for Love (capital L and everything, ladies and gentleman of the jury!).  I know I know I know, sappy stuff, right?  Whatever, it happens, I’m only human.  I fell madly in love with a Chilean woman, my girlfriend, the beautiful Karina San Martín.  Doesn’t her name just roll off the tongue?  More than the beaches, more than the sun and the ocean and the excitement and the challenge, I came back to this isolated, austral, vertical corridor of a country to be with her and to continue our incredible relationship.  One which weathered and survived the white-capped waves and blistery storms of a 1-year, long-distance (physical) separation.

And so, inevitably, people always ask, “Why did you go to Chile?” or “Why did you choose Chile?” or (my personal favorite, almost always said with a strain of disbelief and astonishment, and almost always by Chileans) “Why Chile?”  Well, believe it or not, that is not the easiest question in the world to answer.  I mean, it’s not if I’m being completely honest.  Now I just say I came for my girlfriend, which is totally true, but that version occludes the original, not-so-apparent (dare I say, subconscious) reasons I initially set out for this strange land in the northern summer of 2011.  That’s where Bolaño comes in.

If it weren’t for my discovering this strange, (and at the time) up-and-coming Chilean writer, coming to Chile quite possibly would never have crossed my mind.  (I say “up-and-coming” but, in reality, Bolaño was 6 years in the grave when I came across his legend on some online literary forum.  He was up-and-coming in the sense that people were just seriously starting to read him then in the U.S.).  Once I started reading him myself it hit me like a brick to the face (or, maybe more appropriately, like a baseball to the face, an easy pop fly you should see coming and trap effortlessly in your glove, but somehow it magically eludes you, perhaps by the sun, perhaps by your own incompetence, and you’re left prostrate or supine in the collecting dust of the infield with a bump on your head the size of the ball itself and, for a brief minute or two, total amnesia) and I knew, viscerally, instinctually that I had to go to Chile.  It just took me a year or so to fully realize it.

My good friend Kelsey Angel also deserves much credit.  It was she who gave my ass a real push.  At the time, I was actually considering going to Argentina or Spain, to which she would always reply, “Trent, if you go to Argentina, I’ll never speak to you again.”  She wasn’t kidding.  Positive reinforcement.

Anyway, this is all simply a long-winded way of saying that not only did Bolaño inspire within me the impetus to come to Chile, he’s also responsible for numerous friendships and, ultimately, brought Karina and me together.  I’m merely a fan and an avid reader; she’s written an academic thesis on him.  Needless to say, I was more than impressed (and turned-on).  Beauty isn’t the be-all-end-all, but when, in those rare occasions, Beauty is complemented by Brains, I can’t help but be enamored.

Naming the blog Tormenta was my sly, offhand, nerdy way of paying him homage.  It comes from the initial, working-title of his novella Nocturno de Chile (By Night in Chile to his English-speaking readership).  Originally, Bolaño wanted to call it Tormenta de mierda (Shit Storm or, more literally, Storm of Shit).  A slim, sexy little narrative of political intrigue, romance and deception.  I’m kidding.  The narrative is first-person and encompasses the final, oftentimes-delusional deathbed rant-slash-confession of the novella’s flawed main character: Father Sebastián Urrutia Lacroix—a Catholic priest-cum-literary critic/poet and former member of Opus Dei (a Roman Catholic institution with a history of support for or participation in authoritarian or right-wing governments—in this case, that of General Augusto Pinochet).  Here’s how it’s summarized by Wikepedia:

“The story is narrated entirely in the first person by the sick and aging Father Urrutia. Taking place over the course of a single evening, and written mostly in a single paragraph, the book is the macabre, feverish monologue of a flawed man and a failed priest. Persistently hallucinatory and defensive, the story ranges from Opus Dei to falconry to private lessons on Marxism for Pinochet and his generals directed at the unspecified reproaches of ‘the wizened youth.'”

It’s also endowed with the following summary, on yet another, distinct Wikipedia page (that concerning the author himself):

“By Night in Chile is a narrative constructed as the loose, uneditorialised deathbed rantings of a Chilean Jesuit priest and failed poet, Sebastian Urrutia Lacroix. At a crucial point in his career, Father Urrutia is approached by two agents of Opus Dei, who inform him that he has been chosen to visit Europe to study the preservation of old churches – the perfect job for a cleric with artistic sensitivities.”

On his arrival, he is told that the major threat to European cathedrals is pigeon droppings, and that his Old World counterparts have devised a clever solution to the problem. They have become falconers, and in town after town he watches as the priests’ hawks viciously dispatch flocks of harmless birds. Chillingly, the Jesuit’s failure to protest against this bloody means of architectural preservation signals to his employers that he will serve as a passive accomplice to the predatory and brutal methods of the Pinochet regime. This is the beginning of Bolano’s indictment of “l’homme intellectuel” who retreats into art, using aestheticism as a cloak and shield while the world lies around him, nauseatingly unchanged, perennially unjust and cruel.

A very strange and opaque work of fiction indeed.  Many would call it a masterpiece.  And, as the description above so eloquently illustrates, the most direct, literal, and obvious “shit storm” refers to that brought upon by the cathedral-defacing pigeons (which is, c’mon, really quite funny).  It’s not the only shit storm, however.  There’s the moral one, the ethical one, the philosophical one, the literary and artistic one.  All of which are less obvious and clearly metaphorical.

By Night in Chile is Bolaño’s most Chilean novel.  And, as chance would have it, it was also his first work to be published in English.  It’s one of the first and most significant works I ever read by him.  Its words and images still echo eerily in my mind and occasionally haunt my dreams.  Everything about it, and the author who wrote it, remain incredibly significant to my life and the creation of this blog.  Bolaño, I owe you one buddy.

I created this blog as an outlet, a space where I can write and speculate, jot-down and attempt to organize my thoughts, ideas and daydreams.  It’s a place I want to use to share articles, essays, photos, stories, etc. (original and otherwise).  But it’s also a space in which I want you—my friends, my family, fellow nerds, poets, science-geeks, artists, self-proclaimed-know-it-alls—to do the same.  If something you hear or see or read strikes your fancy or makes you think, share it!  If you have a story, a poem, an essay, a novel, whatever, share it!  I want this blog to be a public safe-haven for thought and creativity among friends.  A veritable shit-storm of ideas (cheesy, I know, but I couldn’t refuse).

So please, feel free to contribute.  If you are a firm believer that books and film can change lives, you’re in the right spot.  If you’re looking for a place to share an original work and get feedback from an intelligent, informed public, you’re in the right spot.  If you really have something to say, you’re in the right spot.

And maybe, just maybe, out of this whirlwind of ideas, comments, observations, what-have-you, we’ll produce something truly spectacular.  I quote from the extremely odd masterpiece, House of Leaves: “All too often major discoveries are the unintended outcome of experiments or explorations aimed at achieving entirely different results.”

Thanks for reading.

(And please, if you have something on your mind or are harboring original work, let me know and I’ll invite you to be a contributor).